"Everything is going to be alright, maybe not today but eventually."

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I am a worrier.

It's true. I worry and over analyze everything. I know that worrying really doesn't get us anywhere but I still do it. It really is a part of my personality that I would prefer to change but that isn't likely to happen anytime soon. I thought it might help me to blog about what is worrying me now in hopes that it might alleviate some of my worries. 

1. Finding a job.

This worries me more than anything else right now. Finding a job just isn't an easy task in this economy and with my unemployment rapidly running out it is becoming more and more important to find something sooner than later. I know that I am not alone in worrying about a job but knowing that several other people I know are out of work and having the same problems isn't very reassuring. I am confident it will work out...I just wish it would be sooner than later.

2. My family.

I worry about my family more than anything else. I want to take care of them even though I know it's not my job and that quite simply...I can't. 

My grandma tops the list of family members I worry about. She is an amazing woman, the only grandparent I have left, and I worry constantly about her health, (even though thankfully she's very healthy, but mostly I worry about her being lonely and missing my uncle who passed away in November. She's been a little less of herself since then and I know it's taken a toll on her so I just try to love on her more and more.  

My immediate family comes next. I worry about my mom since she is also unemployed and looking for a job and I know that has stressed her out beyond belief. No job and having to take care of all of her bills plus my little brother is a lot for her. I can see that she is defeated when it comes to this situation and even though she has faith that it will get better soon I just truly hope it is sooner than later.

I worry about my sister. At 18 years old she has more to contend with than I could imagine...school, work, my sweet lil' niece...that's a lot of responsibility for a young person. I know she can do it, and she has proven to be stronger than I ever imagined her to be but I hope life never gets the best of her.

Then there's James, 13 years old about to start high school and the things this kid has seen...without saying too much he's got a lot to deal with and now is the time when his choices could change his life forever. I love my little brother and I worry about him often.

3. Mr. Coleman

That's Mr. Coleman there on the right with his tent mates during his last tour. I know it may be irrational but I can't help but worry that he will be sent back to Iraq. He isn't technically free and clear until February of 2011, that's the month that he will no longer be obligated to the Army. He went to muster today and I was worried the entire time he was there. (That's actually what prompted this post.) Thankfully the news he received while he was there was not related to reenlisting and returning to active duty and hopefully nothing like that will happen before February. I can't imagine what I would do if he was sent back. I couldn't be more proud of him and the two extra long tours he went on and his service to the Army and America but I hope and pray that he won't have to go back.

4. Analee

It's so weird but if you don't have a niece or nephew then I probably can't explain it. When my sister had her baby it was weirdly like Analee was partly mine. I know that sounds silly but I love that kid like I never expected. She is the sweetest, most adorable, loving little girl and I would about die if something were to happen to her. I worry about her ALL THE TIME! It's ridiculous...I mean if this is any indicator of how I will worry about my kids then I'm going to be a gray haired mommy for sure! Ugh...look at that face!

These four things are the highest on my list; I mean I worry about 500 things on any given day but these four repeat more than any others. I'm working on not being such a worrywart and I have gotten a lot better. Maybe I should just keep repeating the words of the poster above, "Everything is going to be alright, maybe not today but eventually." Thanks for letting me share.

Until next time!

Nicole

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Comments

[Vicki Imbach]

I guess we're more alike than I realized! Haha! Here's to eventually!!! ;)

[AkosiASWANG]

1. Finding a job.

This worries me more than anything else right now. Finding a job just isn't an easy task in this economy and with my unemployment rapidly running out it is becoming more and more important to find something sooner than later. I know that I am not alone in worrying about a job but knowing that several other people I know are out of work and having the same problems isn't very reassuring. I am confident it will work out...I just wish it would be sooner than later.

--- i like it.. very inspiring :)
i can relate because i'm going through like this :(

[Air Jordan]

Education is an admirable thing, but it is well to remember from time to time that nothing that is worth knowing can be taught. Do you agree?